Aww, David. I don't know why you say you're boring. I find your posts very insightful, interesting, and even entertaining. One thing I have noticed is your negative thought pattern. After every nice comment you make, you immediately follow it up with a negative one. Perhaps a good starting point is recognizing this pattern and working to rectify it. Every time you catch yourself making a negative comment, write it down and turn it around.
* "I can't" to "I can, and this is how..."
* "It's too hard" to "It's difficult, but I can, and here are my small baby step progressions to ..."
* "I won't" to "I can, and I will"
* "I'm boring" to "I'm damn entertaining! and an excellent writer. I have a lot to contribute and now is the time for me to discover my possibilities"
I also used to be a former gaming junkie. Three or four years of my life fell off the planet when I became involved in beta testing new MMORPG's before they hit the market. Ultima Online, Everquest, Asheron's Call, Dark Age of Camelot, Lineage II, World of Warcraft ...
But those games are *addictive*. There was a time I was playing 18 hours a day and getting lost in a complete fantasy world. I have given up all gaming because, for me, it's just not worth the risk in my life. My gaming has been replaced with new hobbies including yoga, running, writing creatively, volunteer and environmental work, completing my uni degree, traveling (was in Europe for many years), and learning strong financial management.
I used to be listless, depressed, and lonely. I felt my life was going nowhere. I made changes one baby step at a time and now I feel wonderfully blessed with how rich my life has become. Please keep us updated on how you're doing. |