Originally Posted by mncz
I want this baby, but I am so very very afraid.
The problem is we can't make that decision for you. As much as I would love to give you wise counsel that made up your mind, I simply can't. It's your body, your life, and your child.
I wonder if you're not overthinking this. You're going over and over so many different ramifications, which is completely natural. But your heart knows what's right, if you'll listen to it. Whatever it says, whether it's abortion, adoption, open adoption, keeping the child, then you should go with that.
I've had a couple of friends go through abortions because the father refused to have anything to do with the child. Although it was an intensely difficult choice to make, they know they both did the right thing for themselves. They weren't in a place to be mothers, or even to go through a full pregnancy. But it is, I have to stress, your choice and you will need, whatever you do, to take full responsibility for making that choice. No matter what decision you make, there is no escape from the consequences, I'm afraid.
I recommend that you speak to a counsellor about this.