I know exactly how you feel. I, too, was treated like a bit of a freak when I was a child. I'd have these unconventional ideas and so people would call me weird.... a lot. I suppose they were smart in a different way, such as being able to memorise large amounts of information that was generally useless except to the teachers teaching us.
My self esteem was nil and so I thought they were right.... that I was weird. However, now I realise that that sort of 'weird' is good.
I have written a screenplay (and am 2/3 through adapting it to a novel but with great difficulty, I might add) and it has consumed the last 5 years of my life. Dreaming, hoping, praying that this film will get made, if not for me but my children and for the memory of my grandparents who inspired me to write the story. It might take another 5 or 10 years of this toiling for me to finally produce this script, or it might take me 5 or 10 days. I don't know. But I do know that it is worth something because it isn't from me, per se, it is from God. I could have never thought of or compiled this story in such an organised and systematic manner because, frankly, I'm the most disorganised person on the planet and sometimes wonder if I suffer from ADD!
Anyway, I'd like to be able to support you in your endeavors and perhaps I could ask the same of you. Two writers mixed up in this crazy world of imagination and profit! How insane, but noble at the same time?!
Perhaps the last 5 years have been a warm up for the real thing. Perhaps I haven't been letting go enough to have it truly happen. However, when I watched that Canadian, and female no less, screenwriter accept HER academy award for best screenplay last night, I knew that this film is not far from reality. I just have to keep believing.
