I noticed in another post of yours, you lamenting your lack of relationship and your tone was one that was very wanting and very needy. Angry even. Certainly sad. I'm not sure if that was pre-bad evening or post-bad evening but you have to live your life as if you need for nothing, that it's perfect already, that anything else you get is icing on the cake. Otherwise you aren't even near the emotional place you need to be for this to work. If you have to fake it, so be it. But why not really LIVE IT that way? You'll be much more successful in all areas of your life.
Gratitude toward your friend would have been more appropriate, for giving you the perfect experience where you could see, incarnate, the man you don't want to have. For the contrast needed to conjure the feelings you need to attract the man you do want.
Besides, I have never been on a date that, love the guy or not, I still didn't have fun. But I don't expect my fun to happen through anyone but myself.
Jennifer
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