Empathy Situation: Need Explanation
Okay, something that has really been bothering me lately and will not let my mind rest.
I suffer from depression and the other night I had a VERY bad night. though I can't really remember what triggered it. It was a negative emotions smorgasbord and I was thinking about my best friend at the same time who lives relatively close to me. The emotions I felt kept me up late into the night and the next day I was still feeling pretty down and physically felt sick to my stomach because of it. I had not talked to this friend all night or that day. At the end of the day she told me how the night before she had this feeling suddenly hit her, describing about the same time I started to feel down. She told me it was a really weird, awful feeling she had no idea where it came from and it kept her up til about 4 in the morning. She also told me that she still felt pretty bad all day and her stomach was upset. Another detail, she said she started to feel a bit better which is when I started to climb out of the hole of my depression. It was like when I thought of her I somehow transmitted my emotions to her. It really freaked me out and made me wonder.
Also, previously I've had experiences where I'll be at the computer or whatever not really thinking about a whole lot then this feeling would hit me, litterally hit me, the equivalent of someone giving me a bit of a shove. I'd get really excited, burst of energy and be really happy then minutes or, one time, seconds later this same friend called and would say something like "OMG I just found something out and I thought of you and I had to tell you!" Again, it was like the moment she thought of me, the strong emotions she was feeling were sent to me.
Along with this, I find when ever anyone around me is feeling a strong emotion, particularly a negative one, I can feel it on top of my own. I someitmes feel myself emotionally exhaugsted because of it. I've always been an empathetic person but lately it's like I've become more and more sensitive. It's actually starting to scare me and wear me out sometimes so if someone could explain what it's all about it would be greatly appreciated.
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