One thing to keep in mind is that social phobia etc. is not the cause, but a symptom of the core problem, which is the illusion of the personal self. That this personal self grows heavy and painful with time is something that happens to most if not everyone to some degree, and your case is just an extreme manifestation of it.
And that you have this problem on a more acute level than most is actually a good thing, because you have greater potential for transformation; i.e., you are in a very good position to go beyond it completely.
I suggest that you try reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. In the state you are in right now, discovering that book (or a similar one) is the best thing that could ever happen to you.
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