It's interesting to me that this process is so heartbreaking for you when it didn't seem to work, that you feel like you have to give up. It makes me want to ask, why do you have to give it up? Why isn't the process fun? Even if it turns out that you can't create a relationship with him, shouldn't LoA be gone about in a light-hearted more playful way? Isn't that part of what they mean by detachment, that the outcome really shouldn't be so essential?
That detachment advice we get about LoA seems so contradictory, and it's also one of the more fascinating parts of this whole thing, I think. It seems to be a lot more difficult to manifest something when we are really attached to the outcome. This is why it seems much more difficult for people to create what they want out of a place of lack -- because they care too much about the outcome. I see this with myself, I think. I think we can see this all over on this forum also.
We talked in the other thread earlier about my own manifesting a meeting with a rock star even though it was totally not my plan -- it just happened (although I did have to go to a concert for it to happen, I couldn't just sit on my couch

) -- and I thought even then, it probably was inevitable considering how I was walking around with this Big Crush going on all the time. But -- none of it mattered to me, really. While at the apex of this Big Crush, I would hear specific music from this band all the time, album cuts, I would run across their old vinyl albums all over the place, it would get hilarious sometimes and spooky sometimes, how much I could attract all this. But -- none of it mattered. I didn't really care one way or the other. It was just
fun, and I was just going about my life,
being.
And honestly, I don't know how to go about manifesting like this when it comes to things that actually really do matter, that are really very very important.
A question for anyone who's skilled at all this -- is that an essential part of the process? Complete detachment from the outcome? It doesn't matter whether it happens or not, it's just fun if it does? That's a tough stipulation!