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Firstly, I want to thank everyone for their input and experience on the matter.

Every single comment everyone left is truly a different side of me that agrees 100%. I really feel I can see almost all angles of this situation at this point in my life.

The only side I can't see this from is the wise man who has 8 hours a day to meditate on ideas and problems. Because I am in an office with the phone ringing off the hook for 8 hours a day!.. It leaves little time for introspection or pausing for thought.

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Secondly, I truly believe that given a certain environment. Namely, a quiet peaceful creative environment (say the snowy mountains of Japan 150 years ago.) would be the ideal environment to harness ones thoughts. While on those snowy alps I could use cognition and discipline to change my neural patterns. However, being stuck in the day to day bedlam usually only allows a sort of default, instinct only, shoot from the hip thinking. (Think of the New York Stock Exchange less 2 notches.)

Basically, my daily work environment demands great attention to detail, and High periods of attention amidst mucho distraction. (The complete antithesis of changing patterns and thought habits for oneself.) Once I lose my concentration mistakes happen, the balls of the juggling act begin to get dropped. The work load multiplies with every mistake made, exponentially magnifying ones workload. The greater the anticipated workload, the greater the stress. The greater the stress, the more aggressive the reptile brain becomes, and devours the more my delicate newly formed neural paths of calm and steadfast that I have been trying so hard to create. Then after a week of relapse, we are back to square one.

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February the 26th, I have an appointment with my local Doctor to check on a prescription of some sort for my untamed thoughts. That being said, I am going to follow through with the prescription, and keep a weekly update of how the medication affects my performance, and my life.

From what I read, Ritalin is an aspirin type drug that enters the body fast, and leaves just as quickly. This means long term side affects should be minimal, and results nearly instant.

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My goal is to turn this thread into a sort of journal of my experience from the perspective of an objective, responsible, entrepreneurial adult.

Do those adjectives sum up the psycho-graphic of this site or what?

I look forward to any input, and questions you may have for me while I take this baby out for a test drive.

{Changing habit is one of the hardest things one can do. Changing habits amidst uncontrollable variants on a daily basis, all the more difficult.}