hey,
i am sorry to hear about your problem. I know diabetes can be a really terrible disease but i just want to tell you not to give up! You can control your diet and your state of mood!
Here is something you may want to look into:
CTV.ca | Superfibre may be answer to battle of the bulge
(sorry you're going to have to copy and paste that link). It's a special type of fibre called PGX that regulates blood sugar levels and has been shown to help type 1 and type 2 diabetics because it regulates glucose levels by slowing carb absorption and regulating insulin. Maybe that is something you could talk to your doctor about.
In the meantime think about the healthy things and ways to exercise that you like. A specfic sport? Maybe you like a certain kind of high fibre cereal or a certain type of fruit? I know that trying to control an illness can be discouraging and may seem hopeless at times, but just remember that your body is still yours to take care of, it just needs a special kind of care. And also keep in mind that the diet you are probably recommended to be on would probably benefit everyone in north america and not just diabetics. If you make a mistake and slip up, dont beat yourself up, just try to learn from what you did wrong. How did you feel when you ate what you ate or decided not to exercise? is there something you could do in the future to improve those choices such as scheduling in time for exercise or making healthy foods more accessible or controlling emotional triggers that may cause you to eat foods that you know are unhealthy?
I hope you keep on fighting the fight and I hope this doesnt sound harsh, but remember that if insulin injections hadn't been invented diabetes would be a much different disease than it is today and you would be in a much different situation. Keep on going!