First off, please go so a Doctor, right away. Reach out to your family and friends and tell them what you have told us. Do you have any family near by? Is your Mother close to you? Tell your Mother. Don't worry that any one will judge you, they won't, they will love you!
Depression is insipid and insidious. I read yesterday that depression can be like a vine that slowly, year after year, wraps itself around the trunk of a stately and grand tree. One day we walk into the forest, and the tree is smothered by the vine. Yet still, small leaves poke out, trying desperately to find the sun. Sometimes medication will loosen the strangle hold the vine has on the tree. Many other things are required to bring strength back to the trees trunk.
Do you suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder? Could you get a light box? Do you exercise? Eat well?
Please, let us know how you are doing.
I will be thinking and worrying! until you do!
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