For those that don't know, type 1 diabetes people don't produce insulin which is needed to convert convert sugar/starches to energy in the body.
So you are not metabolizing the sugars from the foods you eat. Said another way: Your issue is you don't receive the sweetness (sugar) that you are giving yourself.
A lot of this is what you're focusing on. You're focussing on what isn't, instead of what is. Your focus is on the lack of sweetness and that is what your body is showing you.
Find things that give you joy: could be being with a special friend, walking on the beach or through the forest, working on a favorite hobby, playing an instrument, etc.
But here you must plan to interrupt yourself, because your thoughts and habits of focussing on the lack of sweetness (your family situation) and the lack of health ("I have diabetes") will get you nowhere. So think of something that will function as a pattern interrupt while you go about your day. Maybe a friend could call you sporatically during the day and say "where are your thougths at?".
I say thoughts, but this is really an emotional issue. You can find joy anywhere at any time of the day. Maybe this should be the first thing you practice. When your emotions are stuck you will feel it in the belly area. Check in there and see what it feels like. Contracted? Tell yourself to soften and put your awareness on the belly. Trust me, the mind is going to ask "how do i soften?", just put that question aside because it won't ever know how... just do it without the mind knowing what it is doing.
I don't have all the answers for you here, and I'm kind of frightened to give advice on serious medical problems. Stay with your program and medications but add in the practice of opening up emotionally by softening the feeling in the belly. That would be a good place to start.
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