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Originally Posted by Chado2423  I've been
obsessed. I've started realizing it myself. I have ADHD, and my symptoms have been
worse. I keep having night terrors every time I try to sleep. In fact I don't really
sleep at all. I don't eat much either. I've been severely depressed for over two years.
I haven't been my normal self ever since my ex and I broke up. I've had trouble letting
her go, and holding down a steady job. I haven't made any new friends. I litterally
think I'm going crazy. If I am on the verge of insanity, or even if I am insane, what can
I do about it. I've tried medication and therapy, but my therapist and I didn't click.
I'm not holding down food very way. I am continually just wishing I could go see my ex and
talk to her, but she wants nothing to do with me. I am having such a hard time moving on.
I got a car, but I have these nervous ticks making it hard for me to drive.
When I was with my ex, I felt so normal and happy and alive. I was able to go out meet
people and do things, and even spend QT with her. But now, I'm just all out of wack, and
I feel like nothing I do is working. I wanted to reconcile with her, and I tried to talk
her, but she called the police on me, if you remember. I can't seem to sleep because I
just have those dreams over and over and over again. I understand conceptually about
moving on, but I'm just not there, like I'd like to be. I've talked with my parents but
they can't afford counseling, and I'm afraid I can't really afford it either. I'm not
even sure I'm going to be able to hold down this job. I work with mentally ill people,
but I think I am more mentally ill right now than they are. If I am, what do I do? I've
stopped stalking my ex by the way, but that just didn't help me all that much. My mind
has gone for the loop. Thanks, Chad
--Chad |
Chad, I'm really sorry you are having a tough time. I'm not sure where you are in the world, but if you contact a hospital you should be able to get acute help. At the very least, contact your GP.
It probably does nothing to console you just now, but please know that I am thinking of you and hoping you will find the strength you need to let go of your girlfriend and move on to a wonderful life. Breakups hurt like hell. Not many go through life without experiencing hurt and pain. But, we survive, even though we feel we never will. We also grow from it and the sun shines for us again. I want that, so much, for you.
Much love.