I've been
obsessed. I've started realizing it myself. I have ADHD, and my symptoms have been
worse. I keep having night terrors every time I try to sleep. In fact I don't really
sleep at all. I don't eat much either. I've been severely depressed for over two years.
I haven't been my normal self ever since my ex and I broke up. I've had trouble letting
her go, and holding down a steady job. I haven't made any new friends. I litterally
think I'm going crazy. If I am on the verge of insanity, or even if I am insane, what can
I do about it. I've tried medication and therapy, but my therapist and I didn't click.
I'm not holding down food very way. I am continually just wishing I could go see my ex and
talk to her, but she wants nothing to do with me. I am having such a hard time moving on.
I got a car, but I have these nervous ticks making it hard for me to drive.
When I was with my ex, I felt so normal and happy and alive. I was able to go out meet
people and do things, and even spend QT with her. But now, I'm just all out of wack, and
I feel like nothing I do is working. I wanted to reconcile with her, and I tried to talk
her, but she called the police on me, if you remember. I can't seem to sleep because I
just have those dreams over and over and over again. I understand conceptually about
moving on, but I'm just not there, like I'd like to be. I've talked with my parents but
they can't afford counseling, and I'm afraid I can't really afford it either. I'm not
even sure I'm going to be able to hold down this job. I work with mentally ill people,
but I think I am more mentally ill right now than they are. If I am, what do I do? I've
stopped stalking my ex by the way, but that just didn't help me all that much. My mind
has gone for the loop. Thanks, Chad
--Chad
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