Thanks all.And Hsiang-Lin,I need a kind of empowerment to learn to live with this illness.I mean,I don't know how I can use it as an advantage.I feel so depressed.Doctors keep yelling at me because I'm not careful with my control.My father shouts at my mom because he thinks she is responsible for this damn illness.But she isn't and I hate the fact that my mom gets all the burden on her shoulders because of me.I fear not from death,but from the sadness that will arise after me.My parents will break up.I know this,as my father tells me from time to time that he is in the same house with my mum just because of me.
