A few days ago, I was skimming through StevePavlina's archives and ended up reading again the polarization posts.
This time, it made perfect sense for me. Darkworking, or the "conquer" mentality; one of the men who affected me the most on my life is not yet 25, but already a self-made millionaire: he tried to smack his philosophies inside of me, but only now I DO GET IT. He is, hands down, a darkworker (if you want to apply Steve's definition) and now that I understand his "thought frequency"... What a jolt!
It feels like there's fire inside of me; if I stop, it's going to burn me down. It has got to be directed, used to move forward, evolve.
This is really weird. Just after immersing myself and truly seeing what the guy I talked about meant, I tried to conciliate the love and share mentality, the giving if you want, with the conquering. It is true, it simply doesn't work; it is not effective. While on that state, I felt like a shotgun, spreading energy all around. Also, when I to tried to lean more on the "love" side, it also didn't felt right for me - because I WANTED things, yet I was ignoring that and focusing on what's around me, instead of what's inside of me. Right now, it feels like a sniper, fully concentrated, no internal chattering or whatsoever.
This was a bite sudden, I have to admit. But, nonetheless, pretty amazing. Darkworking is, for me, the way to go.
I just want to say thank you to Steve, for making polarity matters so clear, and for everyone on this forum who has put up with my confused posts, from time to time.
Let the CONQUER begin!