Erin, I've read that story on your blog.

(I'm a very devoted reader of your blog; I think I've read everything you've written there, and I do recommend it to others.)
Where is the "action" in that story? You just decided what you wanted and it appeared. Yes, I do consider that pretty cool. Absolutely. But where in that is the "take action", other than accepting the job? Was it writing it down?
I meditate regularly, I keep a private journal and a public one with thoughts on spirituality, etc. I read a LOT. I've been working at this for a long time now, trying to understand. I've seen a lot of stuff that makes me go, "Huh" and a lot that makes me go, "Hmm".
I've seen things in my own life that I would call miraculous or close to it, though I had no clue about any sort spiritual laws at the time. I'm sure it must work for some people, at least some of the time.
I guess I'm just profoundly frustrated with the entire process. I work my metaphorical backside off trying to change my limiting beliefs and my attitudes and so on and on and on and I've got pretty much nothing to show for it but a shelf full of books. It IS frustrating. And to make matters worse, I'm in currently experiencing a life situation that I find extremely stressful.
I can be argued that I'm in this situation specifically to teach me something or other, of course, and that's probably true (I suspect it is). But I've read a lot of positive thinking and goal setting stuff. There's nothing miraculous about that. There's nothing spiritual about it. It's just hard work paying off.
If I could figure out how to actually do this stuff, I'd be much less stressed.
I apologise if I've come across as harsh. I'm just frustrated and I feel very disappointed with the universe. I don't know what else I can do, and while I know that time is an illusion, it's very short and if something does change very soon, things are going to be very, very bad for our family.
I feel like a total failure. I didn't try hard enough, or believe enough, or get rid of enough limiting beliefs, or... I dunno. I'm just not good enough.
Pretty disheartening, to say the least.
Apologies. I'm going to go now.