[Allison James]

This may sound wierd but I truly believe my husband is a darkworker and I might be a light worker. I'm new to all this and I might be wholly wrong and don't know what I'm talking about but I have come to the epithany that when my mind is clear every cell in me feels as those they're sacifical. I would put anothers' happiness before mine no matter the cost. It has been this way all my life. Every fiber of my being tells me so. I try to show others try to have others see and act kindly, justly just be loving. Now my husband is what I see or term as a taker. I've told him this. He's a loving person and he cares but if it was you or him, its him and I asked him why and he said why should he be sacifical? He'll take care of himself first than others. He would do something that he knows would hurt me emotionally, and still do it and yet I would continally let him. Or another person for that fact. I told him I strive for continallity and he told me he strives for chaos. And just another clue is we work - are our beings are on total different ends of the specturm. He feels this from me and I feel it from him. And yet as much as we fight and argue because of this; we can't breath without the other. I had an "episode" and past my light into his choas; I was lost in his chaos and he found me to bring me back to my light. And yet I told him I wasn't ready to leave this lifetime with him. I was so afraid to go back to his side because I thought that meant I would die. He says he knows other people like him and I do know one of whom he's talking about, but since I'm by myself - i haven't come to recognize those like me. Does this make any sense let me know. By the way... we've both been diagnosed with bipolar so Like I said I could just be wrong on all this...