[monica11]

i met X last summer after a month long back and forth communication online.
there was so much tempo and sparks between us...i was totally captured by him and him by i before we even met in person. THE DAY came and we met in person....needless to say it was special...we started dating and we had a lot of common values....except HIS FAITH that i was for REAL and he started to taint the present with his past experiences and in effect i was being 'punished' for all the past wrongs done to him...Then the downhill spiral as he started doubting my intentions, my trustworthiness and my integrity...the nicer i was the more vicious he became and then his conflicts became acute to the point of a crisis and it had to be let go, it was just too painful to see....it's been a month and a half today and i know i gave it my best shot as in 150% yet the sadness lingers and the question that he is still, out of deep-seated doubts, testing my sincerity by pretending to be gone to see what i would do next still lingers....(knowing him i wouldn't be surprised). Am i delusional foul?