Hi there,
I'm new on this board and really love to read the stories.
JoyJoy, please ... Don't get to excited for now. You are in a advantage ATM. Don't screw it up again. I'd play sometimes myself as well if I where in your shoes. So now and then only. Telling that you won't be there online with MSN or whatever cause you go out with your girlfriends and so on.
Now, What I really don't get is why you stay so depending on another person? Wouldn't it be much more fun to be independent? This is not about your dignity or that but don't prison yourself this way. It's pretty obvious that you're reclaiming your personal power and looks like it works but don't blow it again.
Stay on your path, focus on YOUR independent future. Love will come again.
And yeah, I agree with you, it's impossible to stay friends just like that. It's hard to let go and to admit but I am currently in a same situation. I met a Girl few months ago, best sex ever, but we are just in a bad time. Now she doesn't want to have sex with me anymore, I want to we've been together to long for weeks in one room. I just realize that I truly love this woman, but if we would continue this way there will be one day when she will be gone with another guy who can give her more things then I do at this moment. I am aware of the fact that I cannot give her security the way she want it. And if we stay bugging her and cry like a little baby and hope that there will be no solution at all. NEVER. Maybe in the short term but definitely not in the long term. So I just go and erase her phonenumber, her mails, from my skype and so on. And if she starts to contact me, then I just ask her how she's doing tell her a little bit about me and move on. If somebody from another gender wants to be friend with me, then there is only ONE way and that is with sex. Not just friends, especially not after I've been in relationship with somebody. Give me a break. Let the person go, they'll come back. Even out of curiosity
That's human nature.