Did someone say social confidence?
OP, I doubt you've asperger's, mainly because the characteristics of this are an inability to read social situations and understand subtext. But anyway, I'm not a doctor so I can't diagnose you (and I doubt any doctor would diagnose someone via a forum)
It does sound like you have low self esteem, evident from this comment:
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people arent interested in my, whatever i have to say has no value"
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A good affirmation to help override this would be "I am valuable, I am worthwhile." Put in whatever word has the most impact for you.
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i have to give so much of myself, and i also feel i dont recieve enough
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Two things come to mind here:
1. Any situation, in order to be successful, has to be win:win. For anything to be win:win, you have to win first. Think of it like this, when the oxygen mask falls down in a plane, you have to put yours on first. You can't help anyone else if you've passed out.
2. People sometimes say they're a "giver" (I know I did) as this has an emotional payoff for them. But givers very often have a subconscious expectation of reward. And when they don't get it (because they don't ask/look for it) they harbour resentment.
A better way is to be a leader, one who raises other people's value/emotions/state while at the same time raising their own. If you interact with this mentality, it could make a huge difference in how others treat you and how you treat yourself.
As for eye contact, I think you're trying to go from white belt to black belt straight away. There are intermediary steps in any processs. Try fleeting eye contact. As you adjust, you'll be able to hold it for longer and longer, and feel more genuine and congruent while doing so.
Here's a link a friend of mine sent me about introversion, it might help:
Caring for Your Introvert
Hope this helps,
Colm