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Hey ElleBlue.

Originally Posted by ElleBlue

I think if you do find some activity, you will not be so obsessed with having a girlfriend and something strange will happen. A girl will come to you, when you least expect it. Every time I had a boyfriend, I was very busy, getting ready for a fashion show or taking on more clients than I can handle. I would meet a nice guy somewhere and they were impressed with me that I had so much going on. Sometimes the "reality" of having a busy girlfriend would set in and they would break if off, but that's another story.

I know what you mean. But being alone for 130-some hours a week isn't really helping either.

Despite my experience of having been dumped for a less busy girl, I feel it is better to go on the way I'm going. When I'm not productive, I don't feel good about myself.

To be honest I never really have done anything productive.

The thing to do, is try something. You may not like team sports, but if you want to be physically active, why not take up running or skiing or cycling?

Running just isn't my thing. Cycling is boring as hell . I've done indoor snowboarding. That place was pretty close by; 10-15 minute walk. Eventually I just couldn't be bothered with dragging all my gear along.

If you don't want to do any physical activity, why not look into developing a video game of your own?

Been there. Wanted to do this when I was younger. Unfortunately my perception of how games were made didn't really equal the reality.

Or illustrating characters and backgrounds and look for a programmer to team up with?

Bedroom-team size video game development is kinda history. I don't consider those boring flash games worth my time if you're wondering.

How about writing? I love to write myself and would probably write everyday, if I had the time for it.

I'm stubborn and only rant people's ears off .

Keep trying different activities until you find something you really like.

There is a point where I don't feel like trying anymore. How long do I have to wait before I find it? If it takes another 10 years someone better shoot me now .