I've been where you all were for years due to depression over many losses, but have to commend Stephen's ability to recognize that he is responsible for attracting friends. I used to isolate; depressed/victimized about how much life sux, city sux etc. But in truth - you must be willing and allowing of friends to enter your reality. I bid adieu to all my friends, one of 27 years - hard, but, he was so cynical/negative/judgmental. AND SO WAS I! Now, I know that I had to be what I wanted to be with and attract and put out the unseen force to summon new positive fun friends and have loads simply 'appear' - but I've always had easier times talking to strangers than family (heheh - same I guess). Make a list of what kind of friends you want, what do you have to offer (sense of humor, reliability, etc.) and it'll happen, but again, like Stephen said - sup 2 U! Good luck, I send you happiness - and Stephen? You rock.