since yesterday when i posted this, i really took a deep breath and chilled out. I took all of your advice and made a decision to just focus on myself and not worry about the eternal at the moment, since i have a lot of healing and work to do within my own self. since i did that, the guy did call me and invited me on a second date last nite! and i didn't kiss him and told him i just want to get to know him first before i get too emotionally carried away. so no kissing last nite. and surprisngly i had an even better time, not worried about being with him, having him like me, a relationship, blah blah....i was thinking more about getting to know him and asking him questions and he got to know me and asked me questions, and we had a pretty long and interesting conversation about our goals and what we wanted and high school and college experiences. i don't know what is going to happen with him, and i don't care much at all now. i care more about my own well being because no person can make me happy if i'm not happy and loving myself. i really want that more now, self-respect and self-love.
i had a good day too today...i had my first yoga class today, it was kundalini yoga. it was very nice, after my class i felt so in tune with my spirit and i just kept smiling and kept blessing and thanking God for the day and being alive and the lil small things that would happen to me today.
i just thank u all so much for all your advice. i hope you all are well, good, blessed, and loved. i love u.
