[simplystephen]

Rio/Rose,

A few things have come to mind.

To give you a quick background, I suffer from depression and often isolate myself. Divorce and bad management of my career (desire to work freelance) have put me in a long term financial situation that ONLY I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR! I have isolated myself and often hide behind the computer. I need to make the changes that promote change in the perspective of others.

So, here's some food for thought.

Chat rooms are are for networking/learning...but the real world is out there
Sometimes friends drift apart...new opportunities arise (embrace this)
Find activities/interests you are passionate about...there you will find friends
Stay away from generalized, stereo-typical, negative thoughts...if you perceive it then the reality will become true
Keep trying, it is hard but giving up is not an option
Find a support group and make friends with people there
Join Toastmasters or a group that helps you improve
Take a community course/workshop...they are often free and always low cost
Keep trying to contact your old friends...share good things with them

I can make an endless list...

As an added note, it is very harmful to think that "men" are not to be trusted. I think in your community you could find many men that have honourable intentions and strong integrity. If you hold some of these fears and resentments then it will never change. It could be time to look inwards and embrace yourself...learn to love yourself.

I think you have so much to offer the world. Look deep for it and you will shine. Perhaps a vipashana meditation, tai chi or yoga will help you focus on a more positive outlook to gain the friendships you clearly deserve.

Good luck with your efforts. My heart is with you. The tears I shed for you are real and stem from my own isolation. I understand.

Be well.