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I been lying to them saying i'm going to school and i leave early in the morning and basically drive around the city of LA, smoking marijuana and listening to music til its bascially time to go back home in the evening and I act like I went to school.
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...First of all... I've actually done that^ before
(minus the marijuana), so I know how terrible and guilty it makes you feel.
I did that on and off for about 5 months, until I finally just told my mom that I didn't like it there, and that I didn't want to go back to that school.
She could tell that I was depressed and confused, so she was more supportive than angry with me.
I ended up staying out of college for about a year and a half following that, and even though my parents weren't thrilled, they were also really nice about it, because they knew that I was going through a hard time and trying to figure out what I wanted to do.
Soooo... my advice is to stop telling your parents that you're taking classes. If I were you, I would get a little part-time job so it looks like you're doing
something... Tell them that you decided to take this semester off...and spend some more time brainstorming, and figuring out what you're really passionate about. Tell them that you really want to get into cinematography and production (or whatever), and start doing some heavy research in the entertainment industry. Enroll in one of the million film schools that LA has to offer, and start networking to get your foot in the door.
I really don't think that your situation will be that hard to get out of-- especially since places like
The Los Angeles Film School have an open enrollment policy. and it only takes
one year to complete!
Maybe you could get some kind of internship or small intern-type job this summer in the film industry...? That would be a perfect way for you to start meeting some people and making connections. Just keep learning more about it and exploring your options, and hopefully you'll find your little niche and everything will start making sense to you.
You'll be fine. Just try to be open and honest with your parents. Tell them what's on your mind instead of hiding it from them.