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Originally Posted by geekchic9  I think the root of my problems is my perfectionism, which is really my desire to be God. |
Hey geekchic,
Your original point was how you could stop trying to be a perfectionist and that you could probably do a better job of things than God.
What you've been through is very unfortunate and I'm sure you wouldn't wish it for anyone else, but that was not God's doing. It was man's. Throughout history various peoples and cultures have been at the mercy of the cruelty of others. It's a consequence man's cruelty towards fellow man and ignorance of what is good and decent. All of us have been at the receiving end of some type of unfairness or abuse, some more extreme than others. Unfortunately, you aren't the first who has suffered horrors, nor will you be the last (until humanity makes a collective quantum leap towards enlightenment).
While you can't change what happened to you, you can decide not to let it affect your perspective and attitude. That's the one freedom we all have. The freedom to choose what to think and what we'll allow to affect our psyche.
Is this difficult feat? Yes. Is it impossible? No.