Well what do you think God is?
If you believe in the Christian God, you must think he's an all knowing, omnipotent, omniscient, omnibenevolent God. Therefore, he must know better than you, since he is the creator of the universe. Your desire to be God and thoughts that you could do better than him would merely be foolishness and misunderstanding of what God is actually doing.
Not to mention you are some human living below the poverty line and aren't quite omniscient, omnipotent or omnibenevolent.
Do you even believe in God? Why does there need to be a God that is doing a "bad job" that you could do better? The God in the bible is perfect, so if you don't see perfection in his creation, then maybe belief in God is the wrong spiritual outlook for you.
Why not let go and stop trying to blame some unreachable, ungraspable being for what you see as the flaws in your life. You are the one living your life, if you've got problems, it's nobody's fault but your own.
What is your definition of perfection? Why is this world so imperfect anyway? Imperfection and perfection are concepts, they aren't absolute truths, they are words that rely on relativity and duality. Everything in the universe can be seen as a flaw, but everything in the universe can be seen as perfect, depending on how you look at it... So what's left is the truth of no imperfection and no perfection, then you can call life whatever you feel like, and it will be true. Look at it as flawed, and to you it will be flawed, look at it as perfect and to you it will be perfect. In reality you're making an utterly meaningless judgment based on basically nothing, but seeing the world as perfect is one better than seeing it as fundamentally flawed.
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