geekchic9, I highly recommend the Landmark Forum in your situation. You will really get a strong sense of power and effectiveness about this "I want the god job" thing. Take a look at
Landmark Education: Seminars, Courses & Landmark Forum and do the online introduction. I think you would get a lot out of it.
Love
Angela (unaffiliated with landmark education 'cept I love it -- they don't give me a toaster for signing people up, I swear!)