I don't agree with you cdn. (who would have guessed that?!

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Cultivating some sort of Zen-like consciousness, like you say,
does make a huge difference in my life. And honestly, when I see your mindset about all sorts of things, I'm not surprised at all that you get what you get. What I see is a confirmation that the LoA works: you get exactly what you attract with your negative thoughts.
But we already had this discussion in other threads and I guess it's useless to go through it once again. So why don't you just stop bothering about the LoA? Forget about it.
I'm glad for you that you found another model that suits you better. I can imagine that it's a big relief for you. And why not? There's not only one right model and many people are very successful with the action-model. I hope it will bring you all the desired results.
So now, take action!