to me this illustrates the constant seeking of the ego. it's the whole pain/pleasure cycle which seems to validate the ego's tyrannical existence in the first place.
I know the feeling.... and the only way out is to let go of this struggle. it doesn't define you and it will only impede you in discovering your true purpose.
it's easier said then done. as long as you look for somebody else to do it for you or some magic words to cure you, you're avoiding the responsibility of your experience. we all have the power inside of us to let go and move on to better things but the real struggle is allowing ourselves to realize that.
the only way to step out of the pain/pleasure cycle I've found that always works for myself is to step out of psychological time. if there is no future and the past doesn't exist there is no canvas for past or future pleasure/pain to control your existence.
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