Lately I've felt like parts of me from every corner of my being have been dragged out of hidden places and crushed into tiny pieces which then are caught up on the wind.
In Pema Chodron's books she talks about Groundlessness and Nothing Solid and learning to relax into that and be comfortable. That's a big deal for me right now. Growing up, I believed that there are absolutes and that we could always know the right answer to any question. Now, not so much. In a way it is comforting to have unlimited freedom and choices. But sometimes it is very humbling and scary.
I'm happy to be at a point where I am proactively searching out what is true for me and working to let go and be at peace. Loosening my grip on the past and what it means is a daunting task for me, as I am sure it is for so many others.
Right now, there are some things in particular that I am letting go of:
"I am tyrannical"
"I am nothing"
Judgement
Control
Certainty
Neediness
I know I will be coming across more to give up. It feels like loss, but also like a new beginning, a clean slate and unlimited possibility.
My new inspiring possibilities are:
Freedom
Light
Trust
Generosity
Openness
Vulnerability
Acceptance
Surrender
I am happy when I think of being those things and how that will change everything for me and everyone I come in contact with.
Love,
ATC
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