 Not finding an answer
Let me explain bit more,
I have tried 30 day trials as Steve suggested, few were success and few were failures. When i get success, My ego gets success, i feel great because the need for personal development arose from the basic animal nature of us. We are animals basically and we do have fears as animals do and we like new sensations(as animals). So to survive and enjoying newer sensations we all feel a need, and personal development addresses that need. This is purely ego driven IMO.
As i know subjective reality, there is NO possibility of 'improvement' or 'development' or 'growth', The subjective reality is purely out of ego, if there is no ego, What is the thing which needs growth? consciousness? why consciousness need growth?? to grow from what to what? Do we want to eliminate all the earthquakes that concisenesses brings to us? we want to avoid thunder? life will improve without these? If we need any improvement, that is only for our ego. which compares and feels inferior and superior.
I read Steve posts about lightworkers and darkworkers. But i doesn't found answer to my question in that. IMO, lightworkers are also ego driven and animalistic in nature(maybe altruistic). For example. 'I feel great when i donated $100 to charity', in this case what is the entity which feels great? instead of ego?
The topic is 'Ego in personal development and SR'. I think many must be having the same question as mine.
Thanks
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