I've been in similar situations before. It seems like you are hugely resisting your current situation. I believe it is your vibrational energy that is attracting what you want. If you are resisting your current situation, you are not sending out positive vibes. I would suggest you stop pushing the issue and try to accept the "is-ness" of your current situation. Then you can start directing your energy to attract what you want. It will come to you in it's own perfect time. But to start, work on your resistance. I know it's not easy. I have written something about it on my blog,
Friday Feeling - Discover your energy and zest for life.
Hope this help
Derik