[seeker5]

Originally Posted by Rose of Cairo

A simple example: yesterday I went to the dentist. My dentist is a very pretty young woman and her assistant was sweet too. While I was lying there I thought about how nice it is to have such two pretty young women taking care of me. That's a perfectly normal thought, for a woman too. What disturbs me is that in this moment, I felt like I had a man's body. I felt much stronger and taller than I am, I could swear that I was about 1m80 (instead of 1m58). I also felt like I was 35-40 years old instead of 29. I have no clue how it feels to be a man (although I'm somehow convinced that I do know it, even though I cannot possibly know it), and still in that moment I definitely felt like a guy, it was absolutely clear to me that I was a guy. This feeling went away after a few seconds, I felt normal again and thought "Ah, right, I'm a girl!".

Is this something you used to do before this whole male-female-energy discussion came to being?

I remember you saying earlier in another thread that you really enjoy putting yourself into someone else' shoe and seeing the world as they would see it. Since you've done it a lot, you're much more talented at doing it then the average person. Is it possible that your concerns may lead you to doing it more?

I feel a bit ridiculous now to be so concerned about such a tiny thing. It's really no biggie. You're right, I'm having some resistance I guess it's fear I'm having. I find it weird and disturbing. And a bit scary. It confuses me a lot. Feels just like switching realities from time to time and I cannot control it.

If it's a bit scary, then it's not "no biggie". I'd say it's definitely something to explore and understand.