Personal Development for Smart People Forums - View Single Post

Rose of Cairo · 01-31-2008, 02:57 AM

Hi Bruce, and thank you very very much for your answer! You said many wise things.

I'm not that interested in identifying male and female energy, actually. I'm fond of energy stuff and I'd like to develop my abilities in that area. But in order to heal people. I'd like to learn energy healing and to be able to better feel which of their chakras are clogged, if their energy is blocked somewhere, how healthy they are, and so on. I'm not that interested in labeling the energy I sense as "male" or "female". All I want is making sure that it flows correctly.

The reason why I asked how to do it is that I wanted to know if my own energy is male or female. Yes, this question really bothers me. Do I want to have more female energy? No, why should I? I'm fine. Do I have some self-acceptance issues? Well, maybe some I'm not aware of. The main reason is that I'm very confused and I'd just like to know.

A simple example: yesterday I went to the dentist. My dentist is a very pretty young woman and her assistant was sweet too. While I was lying there I thought about how nice it is to have such two pretty young women taking care of me. That's a perfectly normal thought, for a woman too. What disturbs me is that in this moment, I felt like I had a man's body. I felt much stronger and taller than I am, I could swear that I was about 1m80 (instead of 1m58). I also felt like I was 35-40 years old instead of 29. I have no clue how it feels to be a man (although I'm somehow convinced that I do know it, even though I cannot possibly know it), and still in that moment I definitely felt like a guy, it was absolutely clear to me that I was a guy. This feeling went away after a few seconds, I felt normal again and thought "Ah, right, I'm a girl!".

I feel a bit ridiculous now to be so concerned about such a tiny thing. It's really no biggie. You're right, I'm having some resistance

I guess it's fear I'm having. I find it weird and disturbing. And a bit scary. It confuses me a lot. Feels just like switching realities from time to time

and I cannot control it.

01-31-2008, 02:57 AM	#10 (permalink)
Rose of Cairo Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Norway! Goal reached. :-) Posts: 2,928	Hi Bruce, and thank you very very much for your answer! You said many wise things. I'm not that interested in identifying male and female energy, actually. I'm fond of energy stuff and I'd like to develop my abilities in that area. But in order to heal people. I'd like to learn energy healing and to be able to better feel which of their chakras are clogged, if their energy is blocked somewhere, how healthy they are, and so on. I'm not that interested in labeling the energy I sense as "male" or "female". All I want is making sure that it flows correctly. The reason why I asked how to do it is that I wanted to know if my own energy is male or female. Yes, this question really bothers me. Do I want to have more female energy? No, why should I? I'm fine. Do I have some self-acceptance issues? Well, maybe some I'm not aware of. The main reason is that I'm very confused and I'd just like to know. A simple example: yesterday I went to the dentist. My dentist is a very pretty young woman and her assistant was sweet too. While I was lying there I thought about how nice it is to have such two pretty young women taking care of me. That's a perfectly normal thought, for a woman too. What disturbs me is that in this moment, I felt like I had a man's body. I felt much stronger and taller than I am, I could swear that I was about 1m80 (instead of 1m58). I also felt like I was 35-40 years old instead of 29. I have no clue how it feels to be a man (although I'm somehow convinced that I do know it, even though I cannot possibly know it), and still in that moment I definitely felt like a guy, it was absolutely clear to me that I was a guy. This feeling went away after a few seconds, I felt normal again and thought "Ah, right, I'm a girl!". I feel a bit ridiculous now to be so concerned about such a tiny thing. It's really no biggie. You're right, I'm having some resistance I guess it's fear I'm having. I find it weird and disturbing. And a bit scary. It confuses me a lot. Feels just like switching realities from time to time and I cannot control it. __________________ Magical Chest - Make Your Social Life Wonderfully Loving Be my friend on facebook.