[The Cloud]

I know this advice might not seem quite related to what I'm going to relate it to, but this is how I reached some of the most important moments in my life. Read Ayn Rand's "The Fountainhead." It's funny, Ayn Rand preached Objectivism, which is a philosophy based on interpreting and living according to the rules of objective reality, but it was her book that eventually lead to me realizing that there is no ego, that it's only an idea made up in our heads. Which is the gist of what Eckhart Tolle seems to say, as far as I've read up on him at least (I haven't purchased any official materials of his either.) But, the character in "The Fountainhead" seems to me to be as enlightened as one gets in this modern world. A man not concerned with anything but being what he is without reservation. Not having to compete with anybody, because there is no competition. Not having to act in any way, because he's already whatever way he is. Not having to take anything into consideration but his nature. Perhaps I'm just strange, but you said yourself that you're a bit weird, so perhaps you can find enlightenment through Objectivism.

Also, you can try looking into Alan Watts, he has a lot of interesting things to say as well.