[Freelancer]

Dont have any puppies to kick, but please leave my ***** alone. (clue: type of cat)

Tell it to keep out of my way.

Thanks - careful, you're in danger of sounding like a lightworker.

Nice warning but don't worry I don't really care if people think I'm a light or darkworker.

Absolutely - we agree again! Way I see it, I'm deep in ego stuff almost all the time. The fact that I'm learning from this discussion and enjoying it reminds me. I am simultaneously trying to help others and myself, but I can't deny that it makes me feel good to be trying to be good for others, which is a kind of selfish motive. That leads some people to say that all do-gooders are is deluded selfish people, even evil, but that's just black-and-white, illogical thinking.

If I understand Steve's posts, he thinks its better when we polarize one way or the other. I feel that for me it's better to maintain a balance, protect myself, care for myself, and also care for others. That, Steve says, makes me wishy-washy, dissipating my energy so I don't do anything very effectively. I don't agree, or even if it's true I'd rather sacrifice a bit of 'effectiveness' and keep my balance.

I think I must be talked out on this subject, I'm just repeating myself.

Personally for me ego is a tool to be used, not something to be and act through.

The only reason I'd do anything for other people is to keep myself, my own self esteem intact. Its part of the Code of Conduct I devised for myself. I don't kid myself (anymore) though, its not because I care about them. Its because if I don't I will end up suffering because this has a tendency to create guilt and guilt has a tendency to tear you up.

From my own experience I know that if I hurt people, if I take without paying then in the end I will suffer as well.

I find the best way to look at polarities is either Unity consciousness or Separation consciousness.

You either consider the entire universe to be one, and seek to improve the whole universe, or you consider yourself to be separate and seek to improve only yourself.

If you are unity-consciousness oriented, this includes helping yourself, since you are part of the whole. However, it means that when you help yourself, you always do it for the greater good. You don't enrich yourself at the expense of others, rather you enrich yourself as well as enriching others to the best of your ability.

When you lighten yourself, you lighten the world. Unity consciousness means service to all, and that includes yourself as well as everyone else. In every situation, you look for the outcome that produces the most benefit for everyone involved, including yourself. Whereas a separation-consciousness oriented person ONLY considers his own benefit.

IMO when Steve talks about lightworker syndrome, he is talking about people who forget that they are part of the all. When you serve the entire universe, this includes serving yourself since you are part of the universe. Lightworker syndrome is when you forget that you are part of the universe.

Perhaps, I don't know.