This could be way off, but I think you are focusing too much on the past and the future. You wish that the coming year could be just like it was a few years ago. Yipes!
Nothing comes around twice, each moment is unique and different, and the only time that really exists is right now.
The only thing to do is to figure out what energy/intention you want the next year to contain, then work on bringing that into the present moment. If you want it to be light and fun, then in each moment be light and fun. If you want to be deep and compassionate, then in each moment, all of them, be deep and compassionate. The only thing that's missing for you that I see is bringing your intentions and desires into reality in the present moment, the only part of reality that really exists.
As for your view of law of attraction, don't use them to beat yourself up about the past, and definately don't use them for wishful thinking about the future. They are both traps for the unwary. If you look to the past and think "Oh, that's my fault, I intended that.", you are actually wrong. You didn't intend anything in the past, you only intend things right now. The reality is that you remember an event, that's all. Everything else is added. Same with the future. It won't every happen. Why? Because the future only arrives as a series of presents, meaning that you never intend anything for the future. You can only intend things in the present as the present arrives.
One of the biggest revelations is discovering that the only time that exists is right now. Through that you get the power of being able to bring your dreams and intentions into reality. All that's left is to take your intentions and create them on a moment by moment basis in the present right now.
So what are you intentions?
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