[Ati]

Dqueens, I like what leandro.leme has said here. I agree that anything you can do that is in itself healthy and positive and feels good to you is a step in a good direction.

Have you considered using intention work in the process here? Do you think you would consider putting an intention together in the direction you want to go?

There is a thread about steering away from negative thoughts that might have some helpful things on it.

Please don't feel you are alone. The fact that you can just come out with how you feel, I think puts you in a spot where you can not only find "help", inspiration, friendly thoughts and communication, but also give that back to other people. There are others who feel this way and I do find that the adage "what goes around comes around" holds some truth.

Please let us know anytime you find anything that makes you feel good and instills hope and good spirits. No kidding, those are valuable things and things others might find useful, too.

All my best,

Ati

Last I think it's a good idea to steer away from anyone giving you negative feedback about stuff right now, unless they are asking for help, accepting of your suggestions and you feel you can do something to be helpful. I do agree that negativity breeds more negativity much of the time, and there's much better stuff around.