[Benny2]

It is getting closure to my wake up time.

I recently discover that I am ADD and that I also have an associated disorder. I probably had it all my life and was not aware of it. I am middle age.

This last semester (career change) I became aware of the subtleness of the disorder and its damaging affects to me. I was never of danger to anyone else. However, I was destroying my school works. I was simply spinning my wheel and getting nowhere. My social abilities were gone. I said and wrote things that I never would have, had I the clarity of mind that I now possess.

I am entering my second week on my anti-depressant and I am experiencing clarity of thinking I never experienced before. Even my writing and proof reading abilities have improved tremendously.

Now I will have to face up to the damage that I did to my wife and myself. The most important thing is not to beat up myself. I am aware of this, but it is easier said then done.

Does anyone out there have any advise on how to reframe from beating yourself up? Does anyone have any experience on the varities of ways it may manifest? What should I be on the look out for?