There are many substances that can increase our connection with Spirit by altering, and thus limiting, our normal perceptions and reactions.
What some modern people refer to as "hallucinogens" many Native Americans have used to "open the doorway", "part the veil", "enter the Nagual", whatever you want to call it, for centuries.
That being said, there is a distinct difference between a Spiritual Journey and a Trip.
I've had my share of both and the latter is a dim shadow of the former.
The use of chemicals distilled and engineered by humans for recreation is a dangerous and spiritless endeavor. The true Medicine received comes from the alliance of the Spirit inherent in the plants and the Spirit of the person ingesting them.
The difference between LSD and say, Mescalito, is not the chemicals themselves, but rather the INTENT with which they are created, changed, used and/or procured.
Some pusher in a basement lab cooking up Acid hardly has the same intent as a Holy Man lovingly gathering and preparing Peyote for his people. The Spirit present in the substance is radically different and will have radically different results.
In the same way, some city-bred white kid could come to the Res, walk around for a few hours, pick some Peyote buttons, chew on them and get just a bad a Trip as if it was the Black Dot Acid at Woodstock.
The intent of the "user" is just as big a part of the equation as the intent of the gatherer/preparer. You could go to your neighborhood dealer with the intent in the ingestion to be to have a "Spiritual Experience". Of course, at the same time, you could have the intent to win the Indy 500, but if you're in a Ford Taurus (even a SHO
), YOUR intent doesn't mean a damn thing. Ain't gonna happen.
At the same time, someone who uses sacred herbs without understanding or good intent is just as likely to have a problem as someone using Crack.
I do not judge those who use recreational drugs. I've done enough myself to see that as too hypocritical. But I do warn people who wish to experience truly Spiritual connections that Drugs are not the way to do so.
In the end, I believe you and your boyfriend had a hell of a Trip. That's it. If you truly want to have a connection that extends beyond your physicalness, seek out a respectable Holy Person and get some learning.