[kirikat]

I am a 40 something single mom, living in a foreign country (Italy).

From all outer appearences I seem to have it all together. Im pretty, I look really young for my age, my 8 year old is exceptionally happy - I have a cruisy job working from home, I am starting a theatre company that is very successful..... I am everyone's paragon of strength.

And I am miserable.

About 6 months ago, I ended a one year relationship with the ultimate commitment phobe / narcissist / peter pan boy. I was in love, but I could no longer stand his lack of commitment. I wanted to be loved in return (how dare I....) In those 6 months we have danced around the issue of getting back together... but he feels love would infringe on his freedom (as does buying christmas presents, waking up for work.... oh never mind!)

This ending spun me out of control. Demolished me. Threw me into a serious dark night of the soul from which I cannot seem to break free. I have done analysis, depth therapy, I have been working with Jung, Hillman, and Moore - archetypes, I have blogged my guts out, gone to the gym, got botox, died my hair red, and done everything I can to get loose... but Im stuck.

Lately, I have been working with the Sedona Method, which provides temporary relief, (but somehow I forget how to do it from day to day), the Abraham Hicks materil (which beats halcyion for making me sleep) - and I have been trying EFT, but it does nothing at all..... (maybe I am doing it wrong!). I am doing everything I can to break free, including trying to surrender, but nothing seems to work, and I cant seem to break free of this "love".

So - any of you experienced EFT'ers out there want to give me a hand? Because where I am right now is not attracting the people that I want in my life.... (can you say ewwww yuuuuuuuuuuucccccckkkkkkkkkkk) - and honestly, as a single parent, staying stuck, lonely, depressed, tearful and in pain affects someone far more important than me!

HELP ME PLEASE!