Before i saw her status that night she texted me and was like how are you doing? (she says this everynight) and i said i dunno, ok i guesse and asked her how she was doing and she said better... We kept talking and then i saw her status and said, "Wait you and james are together???" Then she said no haha Y? and i said i saw your status and she was like o well no we arent together.... i said ...ok.... and she was asking if i was mad at her for making me wait and i said no, and i said, "I was starting to just not care, but then i read your status and realized i do..." and she said, "so you were just moving on? forgetting me??? and i said no, i wont ever forget you and no im not moving on and she replied "ok.." o and before that (after i said something about the status), she said miss u, i really do, im still thinking... and i was like ok ok.. She did most of the talking that night and started talking about random stuff, and i said something like, well im going to bed, night. and she said ok night. so we stopped talking then a few minutes later she sent me a message that said, "Remember the first time we kissed ha i was so scared but i did." and i said of course... Then she said, "i was terrified... i was scared u didnt want to, that u were gonna think it was to fast. then i said, well it was like the perfect moment. and she said ha well i did it ha =). then i said, i know. then she said, "ha and of course the first time we made out was at a football game on top fo the bleahchers haha" i said uh ya i know why? and she said, "Just thought it would make u smile, it makde me, sorry if i bothered u." i said yeah it made me smile... and she said good.. and said well i'll let u go, and i said no ill stay up if u wanna talk. and she said "I've already started balling =(" i said why? she said, " I do this, i think about our good times and i cry because i think this is a bad choice. but then i thnk of other times and think it is a good choice... and i said well either way, its your choice.. and she said well im going to bed, night. (i've told her how i need a second chance to prove i'd be a better guy and wouldnt hurt her anyomre)...
Then the next night (which was lastnight) she asked how my day was and i told her. then a few minutes later i said everything is changing... she was like what ya mean? and i said im changing, im hanging out with new friends at school, getting invited to parties, and acting alot different.. she said o well sounds like your better off without me anyways... i said no, and she said yes. I said no ok, now that im hanging out with theses guys im probably gonna start drinking and smoking and getting into fights, and she was like. you better not charlie... and i was like yeah.. and she said your smarter than that.. and i said, well i now i have to fit in, i cant be myself anymore if im gonna fit in with these people (theres nobody at my school thats like me, jessica was the only one who was anything like me) then she said, "charlie if u try to fit in, if you try to be like one of them, im not taking u back"
then i said something like well i cant be myself anymore now that i dont have u, i have to make new friends" and she said thats just stupid, just because im not in ur life doesnt give u the reason to be like one of them, thats retarted... and said gosh all u care about is fitting in, ugh im begining to think i was all wrong about you... and i said, well you thought i was a whinny little emo kid.. and she said, no charlie, i thought you were a nice guy who didnt care if he fit in or not, and didnt care what others think of him... i said, well this is what people expect and want me to be. and she was like who cares what others expect and want!, all i know is, you've definatley changed my mind about you.. We kept talking and she said if you change and become someone i dont like, then im not taking you back.. So i said ok, i wont ok, i just wanna be perfect for you and dont want u to think im a whinny emo and stuff.... eventually that night we agreed that i wouldnt change like that and i said you wont notice any change in me besides me not hurting you anymore, and she said okay..
and we went to bed...
Okay well thats the current status for now... Shes still thinking and im still waiting...
I love her so much and i need her... Really.. i dont want any other girl.. I know we can be happy together and i want her to be happy and i KNOW she was happy before that bad weekend.
Ok well thats it,
i'd really appreciate it if you could give me some advice on all this.. If you think she will come back or not? what i should do or say?... i really want her back.. okay thats it
Heres a picture of me and her at my house (that great weekend i was talking about)
http://a994.ac-images.myspacecdn.com...9b0cc2fba1.jpg
O and by the way, about james. He and jessica agreed that they cannot date each other or be in a relationship because they live far away from her.