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charlie1 · 01-23-2008, 11:15 PM

Hi this is charlie (im 15)
Remember my post called powerless? I think its on the 3rd page...
I HAD TO MAKE A SECOND POST ON THIS THREAD BECUASE I RAN OUT OF ROOM, READ BOTH BEFORE YOU REPLY.

Okay well jessica broke up with me last monday on january 14th... Im doing really bad...

Everything was going great, our parents met and started letting us go to each others houses, which we've been waiting on for a long time and were very happy, but then this happened...
Okay well here is the story...

ok after i got the advice from everyone on the forums, i started being a new guy and quit worrying and getting jealous, and learned to trust her talking with that james guy...

Things were going great. A few weekends after christmas she and her mom came to my house and our moms hung out with each other and me and jessica just had a great time.. Hugging and kissing and saying we love each other... After that she wouldnt stop tellin me how much fun she had and how much she already misses me and stuff... That was on a saturday.. The next school week was pretty boring.. she wasnt texting me much at all and we go to seperate schools so we dont see each other at school. But she had planned for me to come over that weekend because she said she misses me and really wants to see me (on saturday). So i got my hopes up and stuff. but that friday i felt depressed like i didnt wanna do anything and we didnt talk pretty much all day. and that night i said to her, so what time do u need me to come over tomorrow? and she said well im staying with shelbie (friend) tonight and i dont know yet. Then saturday came and i didnt get to see her because she stayed with shelbie all day... So i got kind of mad because she all of a sudden changed her plans... That day she kept saying i wasnt acting myself and asking whats wrong honey and stuff.. and i really wasnt acting myself, like i wasnt calling her babe or stuff like that like i usually do. and it kind of upset her. I told her its just because i was cranky cause of lack of sleep, and i was.. Then sunday came and i was back to normall but she seemed kind of upset and wouldnt talk much. I was trying to apologize all day and then she stopped texting me back at around 8pm. and i texted her a few more times saying helloo?? or something like that and i woke her up, i didnt know she fell asleep. And she went off on me. SHe was like o my gosh i feel asleep becaused u texted me so much damnit.. she seemed pissed and i was like well ok sorry ill stop texting u. and she said well im up now! so we texted a little more and she was saying how i can get annoying sometimes and stuff. then that night at around 10pm her brother texted me and was really upset because of something i said months ago. About how i said i would kill/hurt myself if she ever left me.. She told him that night and he was pissed.. I kept telling him i didnt mean that at all (because i didnt mean it) and that i told her i didnt mean it..and he was calling me an emo and stuff and said he would beat my ass. But then he was like well im going to bed, we'll talk about this tomorrow.. so he went to sleep and i just laid there and a few minutes later jessica texts me and said Yo.. She usually says hey babe or something.. and she called me dude (she never does) and then she went to sleep and all she said was night. not night, i love you like she usually says... then monday came.. i was depressed because of that weekend, and we didnt talk much that day until a few hours after school she said Yo, i didnt reply then she said yo again. i finally text her back and ask why shes talking/acting like this.. She replied, this is how i always am. and i was like well not to me. THen she was like whatever. And seemed like she was getting mad, so i said im sorry for last weekend, how i didnt act myself and how i woke her up. and she was like ya.. then i tried to change the subject by saying how was your day. Then she sent me a message that said, "charlie we need to talk"... i knew what was coming and i said, "Jessica, i didnt do anything that bad this weekend did i? and said stuff about how everything has been going great exept for this one weekend. and she said, im sorry things just arent working out anymore. i said a few more things and she said, its over charlie, im sorry. I said a few more things about how it was just one bad weekend and to not do this, and she said im sorry im just not gonna take the risk of getting hurt evey other weekend.... i couldnt believe it... i got my laptop and went and sat in the den and got on facebook and saw she already removed everything about me from her profile.. It hurt me alot and she knew and said its hard on her too.. i cried and stuff and just sat there all day... The next day she talked to my friend tanner and told him she doesnt know if leaving me is her finall decision.. and that night she sent me a message on facebook and it said, "I dont know if this is my finall decision or not ok, i do love you, i do. i still havent taken the ring of my finger, or stopped hugging my stuffed unicorn! (the things i gave here), i dont know yet, just give me time to think char.." I said, i understand, and said how sorry i am and that i just need a second chance to prove i'd be a better guy and said im giving her all the time she needs to think... And she said thanks for understanding sweetie. and said well im going to bed, u can text me if you want. So she went to bed, but i didnt text her, and she sent me a text that said, "No matter what i decide, ill NEVER take this ring off and never stop loving you." and i said okay. and we went to bed. and she talked to my friend at her school about the same stuff.

A few days ago she said she really misses me and is still thinking.

I think it was 2 nights ago when i went to her facebook and looked at her Status and it said, "Jessica steed is wishing something would happen to put me and you together distance is the only thing keeping us apart baby! i love you!" TALKING ABOUT JAMES!!!!!!

i looked at his status and it said "James poe

is saying one day there won't be any distance between and i'll always love you."

This just killed me... I TRUSTED her when the told me she didnt like him and that she loves me and no-one else. (which was about 1 month ago)
(CONTINUED ON SECOND POST)

01-23-2008, 11:15 PM	#1 (permalink)
charlie1 Junior Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 6	Status since my post "Powerless" Hi this is charlie (im 15) Remember my post called powerless? I think its on the 3rd page... I HAD TO MAKE A SECOND POST ON THIS THREAD BECUASE I RAN OUT OF ROOM, READ BOTH BEFORE YOU REPLY. Okay well jessica broke up with me last monday on january 14th... Im doing really bad... Everything was going great, our parents met and started letting us go to each others houses, which we've been waiting on for a long time and were very happy, but then this happened... Okay well here is the story... ok after i got the advice from everyone on the forums, i started being a new guy and quit worrying and getting jealous, and learned to trust her talking with that james guy... Things were going great. A few weekends after christmas she and her mom came to my house and our moms hung out with each other and me and jessica just had a great time.. Hugging and kissing and saying we love each other... After that she wouldnt stop tellin me how much fun she had and how much she already misses me and stuff... That was on a saturday.. The next school week was pretty boring.. she wasnt texting me much at all and we go to seperate schools so we dont see each other at school. But she had planned for me to come over that weekend because she said she misses me and really wants to see me (on saturday). So i got my hopes up and stuff. but that friday i felt depressed like i didnt wanna do anything and we didnt talk pretty much all day. and that night i said to her, so what time do u need me to come over tomorrow? and she said well im staying with shelbie (friend) tonight and i dont know yet. Then saturday came and i didnt get to see her because she stayed with shelbie all day... So i got kind of mad because she all of a sudden changed her plans... That day she kept saying i wasnt acting myself and asking whats wrong honey and stuff.. and i really wasnt acting myself, like i wasnt calling her babe or stuff like that like i usually do. and it kind of upset her. I told her its just because i was cranky cause of lack of sleep, and i was.. Then sunday came and i was back to normall but she seemed kind of upset and wouldnt talk much. I was trying to apologize all day and then she stopped texting me back at around 8pm. and i texted her a few more times saying helloo?? or something like that and i woke her up, i didnt know she fell asleep. And she went off on me. SHe was like o my gosh i feel asleep becaused u texted me so much damnit.. she seemed pissed and i was like well ok sorry ill stop texting u. and she said well im up now! so we texted a little more and she was saying how i can get annoying sometimes and stuff. then that night at around 10pm her brother texted me and was really upset because of something i said months ago. About how i said i would kill/hurt myself if she ever left me.. She told him that night and he was pissed.. I kept telling him i didnt mean that at all (because i didnt mean it) and that i told her i didnt mean it..and he was calling me an emo and stuff and said he would beat my ass. But then he was like well im going to bed, we'll talk about this tomorrow.. so he went to sleep and i just laid there and a few minutes later jessica texts me and said Yo.. She usually says hey babe or something.. and she called me dude (she never does) and then she went to sleep and all she said was night. not night, i love you like she usually says... then monday came.. i was depressed because of that weekend, and we didnt talk much that day until a few hours after school she said Yo, i didnt reply then she said yo again. i finally text her back and ask why shes talking/acting like this.. She replied, this is how i always am. and i was like well not to me. THen she was like whatever. And seemed like she was getting mad, so i said im sorry for last weekend, how i didnt act myself and how i woke her up. and she was like ya.. then i tried to change the subject by saying how was your day. Then she sent me a message that said, "charlie we need to talk"... i knew what was coming and i said, "Jessica, i didnt do anything that bad this weekend did i? and said stuff about how everything has been going great exept for this one weekend. and she said, im sorry things just arent working out anymore. i said a few more things and she said, its over charlie, im sorry. I said a few more things about how it was just one bad weekend and to not do this, and she said im sorry im just not gonna take the risk of getting hurt evey other weekend.... i couldnt believe it... i got my laptop and went and sat in the den and got on facebook and saw she already removed everything about me from her profile.. It hurt me alot and she knew and said its hard on her too.. i cried and stuff and just sat there all day... The next day she talked to my friend tanner and told him she doesnt know if leaving me is her finall decision.. and that night she sent me a message on facebook and it said, "I dont know if this is my finall decision or not ok, i do love you, i do. i still havent taken the ring of my finger, or stopped hugging my stuffed unicorn! (the things i gave here), i dont know yet, just give me time to think char.." I said, i understand, and said how sorry i am and that i just need a second chance to prove i'd be a better guy and said im giving her all the time she needs to think... And she said thanks for understanding sweetie. and said well im going to bed, u can text me if you want. So she went to bed, but i didnt text her, and she sent me a text that said, "No matter what i decide, ill NEVER take this ring off and never stop loving you." and i said okay. and we went to bed. and she talked to my friend at her school about the same stuff. A few days ago she said she really misses me and is still thinking. I think it was 2 nights ago when i went to her facebook and looked at her Status and it said, "Jessica steed is wishing something would happen to put me and you together distance is the only thing keeping us apart baby! i love you!" TALKING ABOUT JAMES!!!!!! i looked at his status and it said "James poe is saying one day there won't be any distance between and i'll always love you." This just killed me... I TRUSTED her when the told me she didnt like him and that she loves me and no-one else. (which was about 1 month ago) (CONTINUED ON SECOND POST) Last edited by charlie1; 01-23-2008 at 11:20 PM.