Jcs, I read your reply, and it assured me that you are on your path. You are realizing a lot of your problems, and you begin to be working on them. Congrats for that!
Here's another idea: You may put a little stone into your pocket. Every time you touch that stone, you think about something you like about yourself, something you are grateful for. This is a really powerful thing to do from my experience as well as the experience of thousands of others.
What I can tell you is that you should not feel guilty for what you have done. What happend happend, and there's nothing you can do about it now. Make sure you did not deeply hurt someone (thinking of your former girlfriend right now...), and if you did, try and find out what you can do about it right now.
Jcs, you are on a exciting journey right now, a journey you have begun a long time ago. It will eventually lead you to your goals, your dreams, your visions, if you only keep going. I know that it will not always be easy for you, but I also know that there are no challenges in your life that you are not able to handle!
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