well they pretty much include worrying about losing them when we are getting alone fine. come to think of it now, when we are getting alone fine i observe things in a biased manner against myself. Like if they dont want to go somewhere with me or something i can be pretty harsh on myself with the what ifs. that sort of thing. if they did the same thing with someone who i believe they like then i wouldnt give it a thought.
i guess i know all the reasons why its happening but its just getting more and more complicated when other people come and become better friends with these guys and helping to make it all the more difficult.
also slightly off topic and back to subjective reality, has anyone realised people do things that they dont normally do or have never done before when you remember or think about them in such situations. like if i think two people i know havent spoken for so long i soon find them in conversation. I think we control what people around us do and the way they act. i am experimenting with that and find i happen everytime.
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