** Whole story didn't fit inside one post so here's the rest
I've tried so many times to get my life back on track. To get a girlfriend. To follow a live plan. It keeps failing every time. As in my story above, I never really had much friend or social life. I actively search for a girlfriend, someone that loves me. It 3 times turned into an obsession. So now my questions;
How can I stop being so obsessive about girl / getting a girlfriend?
How do you cope with rejections, turn downs, breakups, false hopes? Surely a 10+ relationship going bad is emotionally n times worse?
How do I start getting social? I'm day after day behind my computer doing nothing much productive, if I just would! I hate team sports and crowds of people you have to interact with. (Not scared to go outside or party with 200 strangers, its the 'have to interact' part). Then I panic, sweat breaks out and feels like I have to puke.
I feel like I need a girlfriend, someone that loves me. What can I do to stop focussing on it? Or an alternative, like not feeling unloved.
When bad things ( especially with girls ) happen, I get too emotional about it. Others get turned down dozen times and just go on. What can I do, so that its less of an impact to me?
Where/how you find a goal in your life? I've read the article, but I just don't know.
I want my life back on track, as far as it was ever on track. I need goals, a future, a girlfriend. I need, I need, I need unfortunately. What is it I do wrong? Al I can be proud of is that I'm clean of weed for 3,5 years now.
Show me a path I could follow? I definitely don't want to walk this one anymore.
Thanks
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