[akky]

alright letes get started. im a 16 year old guy..this is gna sound a little lame but im having problems with my social life. its a looong story so here goes.
in 10th grade i was pretty popular not the most but had 2 really close friends and between the three of us i was probably the most popular (pls dnt think im showing off or in denial about anything i write here..because im pretty sure im not and wouldnt be here if i was) and a lot of girls have crushes on me and stuff because well, the find me hot! and apart from those 2 guys i had loads of other friends (including girls of course) but who were never never as close.
problem is one left town far far away and has become a jackass, then the other starts hanging out with other people and hell suddenly i find im nowhere.

after this i find that life went DOWN DOWN DOWN went through some pretty ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ rough times found out about the law of attraction and things perked up. what im trying to get now is to form a close group of friends between my old friend who left me and one other guy who he became pretty good friends with. While this works i can never manage to keep them as friends for too long. sometimes we get pretty 'chummy' and then i screw it up with negative thoughts and then **** happens and i feel pretty bad and the vicious cycle starts all over again even though i know i created it all and i shouldnt clomplain. Whats messed up is im almost always fighting with something or the other about my social life. AND NOW TOO MANY OF MY FRIENDS ARE GIRLS! and less guys who are as close. so weird thats a bad thing.

Now i know im in a MUCH better position than a lot of the guys who post here i still need help and its my last year of school and i want it to be great. my whole last year went like this and im seriously sick and tired of this crap.

sorry if its confusing but please try to make sense of it and tell me what to do.

by the way does anyone have views on subjective reality..i think its true at least..pretty cool eh

and yes im hot...haha.