I encountered the whole "free from meaning" dilemma a few months ago and kept struggling to figure out how to deal with it. After I had gotten rid of a lot of negative feelings, like feeling I should be doing x or just having other fears in general, it started to seem like life was meaningless. Many of the "shoulds" and fears from my belief system were no longer there, and I found that I didn't have to really do anything in life, nothing was necessarily required of me, I could very well just wither away. I kept thinking to myself, what's the point? there is no point. It took me maybe a week of pondering over this before I came to another realization.
I was basically looking for some kind of meaning from an external source. And from switching to subjective reality along with all the other changes I'd done there was no longer an external source to derive meaning. I saw that there would be never be external meaning I could look to unless I switched to some other belief system or started to become fearful again. I realized that it was up to me to create meaning, and that's what I did. This approach seemed somewhat fake at the beginning since I guess I believed there had to be some ultimate meaning "out there" for it to really matter, but then I saw that this belief was incongruent with subjective reality...so it had to go. Took some time to come to grips with it, but creating your own meaning, creating your own value to life, can be extremely empowering.
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