[Megan]

Remember Harvey and Marilyn Diamond's Fit For Life book? Nothing but fruit in the morning. I was in love with it and them.

That was a long time ago, and I still don't like fruit very much, though I liked it just fine before I forced myself to chomp it down, with no other food, for so long.

To this day I get a guilty twinge in the mornings, telling myself I should just eat fruit, but I hardly ever do. I could have it with my sprouted Ezekiel toast, which would probably be more pleasant & feel less depriving, but the Diamonds still have me felling guilty about that, so...I don't. What's maddening is that the Diamonds don't even eat that way now (and they're not even married now), but they're still messing with my mind all these years later.

I suppose I could do EFT and get my taste for fruit back--just haven't got around to it. Probably should.

Anyway, my various heroic food efforts of the past have left me with residual stuff of one kind or another to deal with, it seems.

As I said (and someone suggested before me), the Middle Way is probably the way of Wisdom. Usually my heroic stuff is me trying to escape my not-OK self. Being OK with my not-OK self would be a better place to start, it occurs to me. (Keep putting off doing The Presence Process.)

I'm starting to think that just letting my body have what it's attracted to eat is the best way. Currently that's 3 cups of salad (with veggies, olives, legumes & nuts) per night, with no sign of getting tired of it. Any night I don't feel like it, I don't eat it.

If I want to hate salad, I know just what to do: force myself to eat it, like I did fruit.

Scrupulosity is a pain.